Day FourtyFour

Losing faith in reason today

as one person is complaining and the other is moody to you.

Just to you specifically.

So you're moody back to see if it works for them.

And then a Latino looking tall hot person walks in.

Sex male

and you can sense that sensuality is what he goes by

through his loose top and latino hat that he doesn't take off until after 

the induction finishes.

Meanwhile our pregnant guest who was out for a couple of days returns 

and catches up with the girls on the terrace while I show Latino male his private room.

I sigh at the sight of it 

cz I wanted to be using this room

on a longed meeting with guy Y.

I don't know why guy Y 

isn't in my personal space yet 

but it gets a bit frustrating.

I have some left over tacos 

and continue to search for reasons I'm here.

Then I think of all the surreal things I hear

and see

like how Ama leaves without electricity when she's home

and how Hanna has a twin sister

or how Jay said

he would emulate me for the way I view people, the way I deeply understand my surroundings

or how Cyprus was one of the questions on the pub quiz the other night.

But still,

Y

Day Sixteen

Cedars.

Lebanese cedar is a popular and precious tree growing in Lebanon.

This is also the tree featured on the Lebanese flag.

Cedars are common for other regional countries yet they are all specific of location. For instance, cedars grow in Cyprus, Troodos mountain as well as Turkey, Taurus mountain

but they each have their own unique characteristics.

I get inspired and look into it a bit more.

It looks like before this flag Lebanon had the Persian flag which was also common for Cyprus and Turkey.

I start imagining how it must have been for all to be under Persian rule

 and I figure that migration, race mix and same culture are a few of the elements that have connected this region.

Although politically a lot has changed, I find my Cypriot self and half Persian girl friend completely grounded in the land between our own.

We met in Lebanon,

on a coincidental or otherwise magnetic draw

to our current home.

The past has brought us together

through familiarity of

migration

race mix

and

same culture

and we are now standing together;

growing like 

cedars

and

exchanging seeds.