Monday, April 18, 2016

Day NinetySix

I hear plates

in the far end
coming from the kitchen.
I'm half asleep
when the beakfervention
starts.

A beakfervention
is a breakfast
intervention.

'Eleena!'
the girls open the door
to the room I'm sleeping in,
holding a tray of breakfast goodies,
smile at me and pass by
to the balcony door.

The sun is shining 
and all is good
with these two sunshines.

I make my way to the balcony
and we wake up
and breakfast
together
in the garden.

Today,
we have no car
so we make plans 
of what to do
according to bus routes
and times.

Of course we never follow
such schedules 
and more so
more things come up on the way.
Like Harrys
for instance,
who called to check if I'm back
in Cyprus
and ended up inviting us for dinner 
with the girls.

The day goes by
and the night comes.
We are all excited to 
visit Harrys
and try his cooking!

First things first;
we arrive late
and so we jump on the kitchen tall table/bar area
where he serves us the food.

Cypriot delicasies.
Asparagus in scrambled eggs,
slow cooked mushrooms
and taro in the oven.
All served with olive oil
and lemon.
Our taste buds
were dancing happily
as we combined these 
with toasted bread with oregano
and local wine.

A humble feast.
The way
it happens in Mediterranean
and Middle Eastern 
areas.

We discuss how
this is something common
for Cypriots
and Harrys insists that this is nothing.
'You should see our parents
and grandparents.
They make food for fifty people!'
'Yes we saw
Elina's dad.!'

and the night continues
with Cypriot hospitality
over a contemporary
Greek movie-
'The Dogtooth'.

Night, complete.
Mind, pomba.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Day NinentyFive

Sunday Foodday

and we start off our adventures with eating.

First breakfast,
and then the housecooked pastitsio dish
my dad made.
With mushrooms 
instead of minced meat
and all the vegetarians in the house are winning.
He's fasting for Easter
so it's a good chance for him to try
a varietion of the dish.
It's less oily too.
I hope that gets noted
for future reference.

We head out
to find a place with internet.
I know it sounds needy
but none of us is that obsessed with 
the internet
for social media.
Ok maybe Hanna, maybe a little bit,
but more so the girls than I
want to update people
of where they are
what they're doing
what they're eating
where they're staying.
It's all good and familiar for me
but 
for what their grandmas know
they could be in France 
having cheese and wine.

We get to Ifantourgio;
a cool space which has become 
a book club as of lately.
The furniture is a coordinated 
combination
of complete
random shapes and textures
and it's lovely.

We pick a leather couch
with two armchairs on each side
and spread out
like F.R.I.E.N.D.S. do.
We order our coffees and start blogging.

I love that the girls are here
and it helps me experience things as an outsider.
Truth be told,
I haven't had Finish friends before
especially not in Cyprus
and especially not two
that have been my dorm mates for 
two months.

I take a break to look around at the streets.
I recognise an alley
diagonally opposite
to my left
and I remember the day I left
without saying hi
to Y
and it's almost like his presence is sketched there
at the bar I never visited.

I switch back
post a post
and 
wonder how many of my thoughts are
self induced.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Day NinetyFour

Team Finland

are arriving today!

Super excited and feeling much better.
I have a shower,
wash off the illness 
and head to the airport.

I'm excited!
And nervous.

Hanna and I had been having these dreams in Beirut
where we felt out of place in our hometowns.
I was dreading the reality of this.

I arrive on Cypriot time;
similar to Lebanese time;
i. e. ten minutes late
and stand with a colourful
'Team Finland'
sign
at arrivals.

I can't see the girls
so I wonder if I was THAT late
that they headed outside.
Or if they missed the flight,
I don't think we ever confirmed they caught
that plane.

I sit at a distance
and observe the faces of the people who arrive.
I notice some cool pants
and an overall cool travelling style.
I make positive judgments in my head 
and then look up to the face.
It's Alex!!
Oh and there's Hanna!
Team Finland has arrived-
I slide off my seat and rush
to greet them.
We hug strongly
and 
reunite.

It's nice to see them again
and rock the girl gang attitude again.

We head to the car.
A children's birthday party is eating for us
in a forest house.

They compliment my pants
and I say I've dressed up
as a godmother
seeing that it's my godson's
birthday!

Girl gang on godmother vibes
lego.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Day NinetyThree

St.ill

and I'm still enjoying my time and space.

The soup was great
and I'm recovering.

I wouldn't have enjoyed any company
at this moment.

I occasionally turn my 3G on
and join in on the Hummozapiens
group chat.

Then I turn them off.
I half wish we had wifi
and half don't care we  don't.

I keep warm and hydrated
and do all the potion tricks
like, ginger citrus & spices tea,
Cypriot honey
onions in the socks at night
and loads of fluids.

The girls are arriving tomorrow.
I can't not talk to them.
In face I want to
 talk to them.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Day NinetyTwo

Smooth landing

as my bro humbly picks me up from the airport
and takes me to the house.

As Alex would say

beit msh beit;
a house is not a home
so I desperately 
try to keep 
the Lebanese energy
alive in me.

The transition is smooth.
I wake up alone
in the company of my ill self.
And I prefer not having a voice
than having one and using it 
unwisely.
I contact nobody.
I haven't seen my dad and my mum doesn't know
I have arrived.
My day goes smoothly
with not much energy to do anything other
than
just exist.
My favourite.
And I have found myself at peace on similar days
like this one,
where the strengths of the self
are limited to 
taking care of just the self.
An ill day
of self care.

I make soup.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Day NinetyOne

Going through the day
as if I'm not leaving.

My roots have grown so deep
that I feel unmoved
and well grounded.

The day is a pleasant rush
as we go to Shatila for our last 
English class 
and fitness class.

It's the last time for all of us
and it's quite emotional.

Victor has come along with his camera,
Heyly's here and Basem has come along too.

We share a class with Jenny
as Hanna and Alex 
take up the other two classes.

The class runs smoothly.
And I admire Jenny's kindness with kids.
Amazing communication ways.
So innocent and bright.
The kids respond
and I catch myself watching.

The next class is my favourite.
The time comes and we enter.
We draw and write in textbooks
and half way through
as is common,
the kids get impatient and want something more entertaining.

We sind if you're happy and you know it.
I'm a lot more physical today
with hugs and kisses
I drown them.

Their Arabic speaking teacher Rawan walks in
and I ask her to translate to them
that I'm leaving today.
Going [so called] home.
She translates it..
'Mis Alina rooha al beit'.
I wait for a response.
A meh one.
The kids go loud
'£&#+£('
What are they saying!
I ask.
They're asking for me to stay.
I have no response.
Rawan signals for them to sing a song for us.
They sing it.
It sounds sad and my eyes water.
I look at Jenny and we're both holding it in.
I ask what it means.
She says it's a goodbye song.
It sounded so
so
sincere.
My god.

-

Fitness class and the girls walk in.
An hour of handstands doesn't seem long enough
and the time comes when we say
'one more and then halas ok?'
ten times.

We don't want to stop
as much as they want to continue.

We are all aware 
that it's Hanna, Alex and my last time here.
We say our goodbyes 
in a more positive than anything tone.
Thankful for the days we shared,
grateful,
and most of all hopeful
that this class continues to evolve
with Mallory
and whoever
comes along
or comes back.

Girl power goodbyes.

--

And finally,
rushing back to the hostel
to pack
and leave.

Who wants to do that?

I do that old task
of packing
and rush down
for more personable goodbye rituals.
Ed, Jen, Julia and Mals
have come along.
Greg, Han, Alex
and Kaloua
gather around.
I wonder if they're all here for me.
I feel special
and warmed in the lovely circle we have created.
Puns intended as we 
henna my hand with Arabic letters of silence 
and seen.

All is complete;
the circle takes it's last curve
and our goodbye 
seems like a welcome.
We meet where we begun;
where there wasn't a beginning
or an end.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Day Ninety

General Security

The day I thought I was gonna be denied exit from Lebanon
and wished it happened.

I waited three months for the day my visa expires
and a day before it did
I was wishing it just did.

That way
I wouldn't have to exit the country.

Yet I booked a flight and now 
had to
go to General Security 
for that exit stamp.

Crazy thing to do on a rainy day like this one.
Not even God wanted me to go.

[Cypriot translated & paraphrased way to say
God is crying with me/for this]

I sit in the corridor,
waiting,
for my faith to be decided by the all-male staff 
in army uniforms.

I'm very smily today
and happy.

I look around and it hits me;
how much I'm gonna miss this
disorganised
layed-back
unpredictable
setting.

'Elin
fadale'.
He gives me my stamped passport.
Now I have to go.
They're closing anyway.

--

Last night 
and the grand Hummozapiens
are out.
I'm on my way there
but Mals and I take a detour.
We go to another bar
where I tell the barman guy that I'm leaving tomorrow.
Next to that bar,
another barman friend tells me his mind trips
as I say I'm leaving.
God is still crying about this
and the old bar owner agrees with me.
Jimmy,
an awesome man.

It feels weird to go to
what has become 
your neighbourhood
and say you're leaving.

To where yeane?